I know myself for saying things without even thinking. I know it like the palm of my hand. I had to incorporate an iron clad control for 22 long years but I think it's not that iron clad at all.

Just this moment I'll let this slip.

I’m a huge fan of Nirvana. I've heard a lot of cover songs; I've even looked for them at one time to check if they've given even an inch of justice to it. Perhaps at that moment I was possessive of something I know is not even mine. But I guess being a fan entitles you to that.

I, as much as possible, do not wish to engage in fanaticism. But I guess like a spectator admiring a beautiful masterpiece of a virtuoso painter, you can’t help but follow the artist's path to success, know how he became an artist and sometimes know how and why he incorporates his emotions and ideas in his art, especially if he is so brilliant and is successful in drawing you in his world of art. And if the level of enthusiasm in which you follow the said artist goes beyond normal? That I suppose is the beginning of fanaticism.

I am a fan of Nirvana, not because Kurt Cobain is handsome or Cris is so charismatic, or that David looks cool and innocent at the same time with his super long hair. But because they are an artist in their own way, just like most musicians are. Their passion in what they do is very palpable despite of the curtain crap of showbiz always hanging down. Perhaps that's why they were able to touch the heart of the world in a deeper way than most artists do.

I began to search for interviews, their childhood, their behavior while shooting a music video, their family back ground, the place where they lived, friends, school etc. to know how passionate they really are in their craft.

I like thirty seconds to mars too. But when I saw a clip in which Jared covered a nirvana song, as a tribute to Kurt Cobain. I just felt... awful. The video is great; I had goose bumps because it was executed very well. He sang almost like Kurt. He held the guitar the way Kurt did. He dressed like Kurt did in their MTV Unplugged Video. His "hair" was just as disheveled as Kurt's. And I almost felt Jared's passion, his affection for what Kurt did as an artist. I thought I saw a man who dedicated his time in the form of a video to thank another man for giving him such an inspiration. The video is almost sincere.

But something about it is really wrong. I don’t know why. But considering how people are in such a crazed uproar speculating who should play Kurt Cobain in a movie, I don't think Jared made a good idea by sharing his video to the world. The only thing I can see as a consolation is that he did it only days after the anniversary of Cobain's death, and that he wrote it in his blog. But using a social network, it's as personal as it could get.